It's the oddest feeling being both excited and terrified at the same time...

So I am sitting on my spot on the couch for one of the last times as a regular resident of the farmhouse on the dairy. It's exciting and totally terrifying at the same time. I am excited about moving on to the next stage of my life, but nerves are all over me. And it's just the usual stuff. Will I be able to pay the bills, will I end up flunking out of OSU, will I fail at life in general? Just wacky stuff like that.
Then of course I'm going to miss my babies. I have been involved with the rearing and caring for the calves on this farm for ten years. Everyday of every week, for the last ten years. And to not be involved in their lives anymore all the time saddens me greatly. I mean, I have put many hours of hard work into rearing them, and now...I have to leave it to other people, and I find I don't like that very much. LOL. I know, I know, the others will be perfectly good calf feeders, but I can't help it. They're my babies.
And then of course there's Penny, and Sailor. To not see them everyday is going to hurt as well. But I will be back for visits.
On Monday I move to Corvallis. It's a great apartment and I know that I will make lots of friends and love living there. Plus I will be working on the OSU farm, so I won't be completely separated from what I love the most. All I have to do is just keep my eye on the target, and that's my degree.

Oh, and I promised to keep you guys in the loop as far as it goes for getting published, and so far I've been rejected by two agencies. But I'm working on my third right now, and I know I'll get published eventually as long as I keep trying.
So, here's to diligence! LOL