They truly get better!
Let's just say that at the end of June, I wasn't feeling so hot. I had just come off one of my worst years as a student ever, and totally questioning every direction I was going in life. I was wondering if college was even the right thing for me at all. Sure I was happy that I had chosen to pursue a career in art, but the whole year had still left me questioning my abilities as an adult.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a child at heart, and knows that even though I'm 22, I'm really 12.
And I thought my personality was ruining my chances at being a successful adult. And that truly scared me.
Then I got a letter from OSU saying that they were going to cut my Financial Aid because of my math grades. I didn't know that I could have felt that low. I had never failed so poorly before. Of course I went through all the measures to regain my aid, but I felt completely hopeless.
I found myself doing nothing but listening to "The Vampire Diaries Soundtrack" Songs:
Cut, and
Down .
Then there was a huge mess up at work, which in all honesty is another story for another time, that most who read this, already know of, and the rest really won't care about. LOL, wait for it in "R&R."
But at least, I was thinking to myself, I still have my job.
But then Pottermore had their early entry game, and I got in. It was a nice distraction. And then! I got an email from OSU, saying that they had approved my appeal!!!!! Plus, I had bought myself an Asus Transformer, with free Angry Birds. Hey, it was the little things that were making me feel better. LOL
And then! I got this in my email this morning,
So, right now I feel awesome. A new, and funded, year is ahead of me, and I can't wait to prove to the board that they did the right thing by approving my appeal. And if you're curious, I found that I still have a copy of my letter. I never delete things until I'm absolutely sure I won't need them anymore. LOL
July 12, 2011
To whom it may Concern,
My name is Lydia Atsma, and I am a student currently attending Oregon State University. Recently my grades have fallen below where they have ever been before. It was my dream my whole life to become a scientist and work with animals. But with that dream, came one huge hurdle, and that was math. Along with my desire to study and work with animals, my whole life I had also struggled with math. Every year was one challenge after another to get passing grades with that subject, but I was able to do it. And I thought, if I could pass Trigonometry, I could pass Calculus 1, and if I could pass Calculus 1, I could pass the second level. But sadly, it seemed that Trig was as far as I could go. I even tried to remedy my failure in Calculus and try again. But it still seemed out of reach.
Now, I am facing my second year at OSU, and after changing my major, my grades have improved immensely. But just not enough, all I need is one more term to get my grades back into where they need to be. I am now pursuing a different major, one in Graphic Design, and I am eager to move on from the previous year.
I implore you to give me one more chance. I know I can fix my grades and become a student in good standing once again. All I need is a second chance.
Thank you for taking the time to read my letter.
With much gratitude,
Lydia Atsma.
